FUCK for 2008 and WELCOME for 2009

Happy New Yeaaar! 2008? The WORST yeaaaar! Having fun with my friends? Of course yes! but, sometimes when nobody know about my problem, I was crying alone! To much problem and it comes at the same time! I don't know why or what I mistake I've done, but I want to say Sorry if I make someone Hurt! 2008, GAME OVER!

IF YOUR NOT THE ONE

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my husband?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
but I know that this much is true

We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

I can't wait......

Sabtu, itu hari yg paling gue tunggu2 banget! ZIKY HOME! I can't wait anymore! Really really miss you zik! Bakal, jalan2 bareng lagi, bebas ketawa2, telfon2an, smsan! Bebas semuanyaaaa! Cepetan pulang ya sayaang... :')

may I suspect to you?

aaaah! God please give me the reason! I don't know what I must to do now. I so desperated with my feeling! It's so ruined! I really really don't kow! If I can scream, I wanna scream all of dirty words!! Many problems come to me at the same time! God, what a misake I've done?! Please enough! I don't know what I must to do with all of my problems, esp my problem with Ziky, my boyF!
may I suspect to you Zik?! No contact for 3 days! Isn't enough for you?! HAH?! I know what I must to do know is give my careless and my kepercayaan (sorry I don't know what the mean in English)! hhm or maybe in another place you have another girlF? I'm sorry if what I said is wrong! but I really really don't know what I just to do! I MISS YOU SO DAMN MUCH ZIK! do you can't fell that?!

does't he?

he still my boyF kan ya? but why he doesn't know what I feel and what I want?! Don't you have a HEART?! hah?! please dong zik, trying to realized me! I'm your Girlfriend! wake up and trying to be someone that what I want! ya I know it must be in process, but I don't really look a little change from your self zik.. No more Happyness in Our Relationship I think! To much Sadness.. I really really want my Ziky like Ziky in the past! :'(

David Cook - Always be My Baby

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Happy Anniversary 2months Ziky

Yeah 2months! But nothing special today! Just because our (me and Ziky) relationship have been for 2months! Zik, kamu pulangnya cepetan napa aaah! Sebulan ini kita gak ketemu! And fyi, Ziky gak ada kabar 4 hari! Apa deh banget kaaan! 2 bulan, tapi Ziky gak ada kabar! 20 Desembar rasanya lama banget bagi gue! Be patient ya caco yang CANTIK! zz